Bright Lights 29

Hey guys, what's up?

How are the finals going? Enshallah everything is going well.

and for those who are done with finals, hope you're having a wonderful winter break. … Have fun and enjoy it!

I just started my spring semester, I'm so jealous of you guys … I want a long break. I need summer ;'(

6awalt 3aleekm, sorry ;$

Enjoy ;*

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Me: How about we play the questions game… it’s basically me asking you questions and you answering them

Fahad: ya 7ubch 7ag el as2ela

Me: no, no, I’m serious, I’ll get to know you better…

I sat on the twirling chair by the desk, while Fahad was still on the bed.

Fahad: okay, yallah se2lay shnu tabeen t3rfeen

Me: hmm so where do I start?... (I started twirling with the chair and then when I came up with the question I stopped and turned to him) Hmm okay, laish baba ma gali about Faisal ena kh6abny?

Fahad: l2n oboch mayr'9a takhtheena (He said in a stern tone)

Me: okay let's get this straight, What are you hiding from me!!

Fahad: ma khasheet 3anich shay.. geltlch kel elsalfa awal yoom camp.

Me: you always tense up when I mention Wasan's name and now the same thing with Faisal!

Fahad: Entay malich shghl eb la Faisal wala Wasan … hatha el shay baini w bainhm, mu mn 7agch etdakhleen

Me: ley 7ag etha kan shay ekh9ni

Fahad: entay mat3rfeen walaaa shay !! La tsaween ro7ch fahma w 3arfa, you do as I say.

Me: no, I told you once w agolk eyaha mara thania, I don’t work for you Fahad.

Fahad: Faisal etsheleena mn balich

Me: enta 7a6eet el fekra eb rassy… I’m gonna meet him once I get back to Kuwait… maybe he’s willing to tell me what you can’t say.

Embayn 3aleh ena wayd em39b bs he’s trying to control his anger.

He came to where I was sitting and stood there,

Fahad: (he breathed in and said) 9aba!

Me: n3m

Fahad: sh9ar, tawa mafeech shay… laish chethy faj2a tbeen et3rfeen Faisal.

Me: coz I wanna know what’s happening… I’m so confused about all of this

Fahad: shnu eli you’re confused about w ana afahmich

Me: laish ma tabeeni atgarab mn Faisal?… w b3dain I get ena Wasan was your ex but that doesn’t mean you can make me stay away from her.

Fahad: ENTAAAY SHAKU FEEEHM!

Me: Fahad la t9arkh (I said between gritted teeth)

Fahad: Narfazteeni!

Me: sh7ga etgool ana shaku! 3ayal ana hnee shga3da asawy .. mu kel hatha eb sebat Faisal.. kel hatha 3ashan gal yabi yetzawjni! … ana eli el mafroo’9 agoolk shaku !!

Fahad: shlon ana shaku w ana abi el shareka m3a obooch

Me: okay dreena taboon shareka ma9arat shareka!! bs abeek etfahmni shnu maw83k enta hnee m3ay pretending to be my fiancé

Fahad: gaylch el salfa w mala da3i a3eedha

Me: you told me part of the story!! Abi a3rf el salfa kamla … what was the reason that made you do this!! laish gh9abtni eni amathl eni akoon kha6eebtk .. there is a hundred way to solve this … but why this way … I could’ve met him and made him change his mind about me. I would’ve came up with a lot of ways to get rid of him but NO, you chose this! (I held my hand up for him to see the ring in my finger)

Fahad: 9arlna more than three weeks 9aba w tawch tstw3been kel hatha !! laish ma sa2altay mn gbl, laish al7een!

Me: coz you just made me realize all of this! fe enna wara kel hal salfa … I’m gonna meet Faisal and there’s nothing you can do about it

Fahad: 9ABA!! (3a9ab) khal asm3 esma 3ala lsaanich w raaabii …

And before he continues with his threat I cut him off saying,

Me: FAISAL, FAISAL, FAISAL!! Go ahead !! here, I said it!! Faisal, Faisal !! what are you going to do about it!

He held my arm really tight, it started to hurt but I didn’t say anything I know he was losing it.

Fahad: Faisal etsheelena mn balich entaay mu lah

Me: you don’t have the right to say this (I tried to pull my arm from his grip but he was holding too tight)… I’m the one who decides … and just because I’m not his doesn’t mean I’m yours!

Fahad: Entay ley, ma7ad ra7 yakhtch meni, la Faisal wala ghaira (he stated and let go of my arm)

Whaa … :O

Me: We’re getting married aren’t we? (I whispered)

I know he has his ways to make me do what he wants. My dad probably planed this with him! They’re going to make me marry him!

NO WAY IN HELL!

Fahad: mu al7een

Me: What does that supposed to mean? Chethy 3ala kaifk, 3abalik ra7 atzawjk… I don’t love you, I don’t even know you! … We both know you don't care about me!!! I don’t know what you are up to Fahad! I know it has something to do with Faisal and Wasan… I promise you I will know, and once I do, and find out that its something that will hurt me, I swear I wont let you be… I’m not that same girl M7ammad played on, I learned a lot from my past experience, … I know you know me, so I’m guessing you know what I can do … I’m Saba Mackenzie, don’t forget that

Fahad: I’m doing all of this to protect you… I’m not m7amad! I don’t work for anyone! Etha hatha eli entay khayfa mena! Entay ley ana, tadreen shnu y3ni!! Y3ni ana 7a6ch eb rassy.. hal 7achi mu mn yoom youmeen, hal 7achi mn sneen … 9aba 7ag Fahad w Fahad 7ag 9aba!

Me: lw ana 9ij kent 7agk… chan ma kh6abt Wasan chan ma fkrt eb ghairy … w enta shtabi feeenii I’m not your type! I DON’T WANT YOU!

I thought with that I would shut him up, but it didn’t

Fahad: you’re not my type and that’s one of the reasons re’9eet eb Wasan… w 3ala fekra Wasan mu awal wa7da eb 7yaty … aku ghairha alf wa7da, … ana saweet kel hatha bas 3ashan mabi afaker feech walla abi a7ad egooli ena entay ley!

Me: I don’t get it… one minute you want me, and the other you don’t

Fahad: my point is, 7awalt 3ala kethr ma agdar eni a7b wa7da ghairch bs ma gdart

Me: SHNU ET7BNY! How can you love someone you never met?

He’s so stupid!

Fahad: you’re unbelievable, … your whole childhood bl Kuwait kanat m3aay! And you don’t remember anything!

Me: I remember my childhood pretty well, and I’m sure you were not in it. … you’re probably so obsessed with Saba Mackenzie that you’ve lost your mind, you started making stories and believing them (I said in a disgusted tone)

The last thing I needed was a crazy obsessive Mackenzie fan

He came closer to me, his hands reached for his laptop and he started clicking with the mouse staring at the screen

Me: what are you doing?

Kelish mu waqta

Fahad: shofay (He turned the laptop to me)

I stared at the screen … there were some pictures of me when I was about the age of 7 or 8. I was with my my favorite childhood friend, I remember him clearly, I remember everything… but why is Fahad showing me pics of Hoody and me together,

Me: that’s Hoody, what happened to him… I haven’t seen him for so long… how did you get those pictures? … and why are you showing me these?

He didn’t reply

And then suddenly I gasped and turned to face him,

Me: (I whispered) Hoody?

Fahad: I never liked the nickname, it sounds so gay

I ran to him and gave him a hug. I was suddenly laughing and crying out of joy, I guess

Me: Hooooody … I can’t believe this!! … I missed you, laaish chethy hadeetni wala sa2alt 3aanii!! …

I dug my face into his neck and cried. I didn’t know why I was crying. Was it because I was happy to see my Hoody or because I missed my Hoody and at this time I really needed to see him.

I lifted my head… I wanted to see his face,

Me: ambeeh Hoody it is you… why didn’t I ever notice!! Laish ma geltly!! (I dug my face back into his neck)

Fahad hugged me back, I know he was smiling

I let go of him and stood in front of him.

Me: Hoody?!! .. a7s mayloog 3aleek Hoooody!! You used to be so innocent and so nice

Fahad: I’m still the same Hoody

Me: No, what happened to you! you’re Fahad, you became so mean. I never thought you’d turn out this way…

Fahad: y3ni khala9 you don’t like me any more

Me: emballaah akeeed I like you (I hugged him once again)

I still couldn’t believe this.

Hoody was out of my life as soon as I moved to the US. I never heard his name in years. In fact, I never knew his real name, all I knew was he was Hoody! My hero.

Me: wain r7t kel hal sneen … laish ma sa2lt 3ani! You know I missed you

Fahad: ana sa2alt 3anich w kent 3arf kel akhbarich bs entay eli nsaiteeni

Me: madry … ever since I left Kuwait I knew I’d never see you again, I never bothered to ask

Fahad: laish, what made you think that you’ll never see me again

Me: you were not my cousin, enta kent weld wa7d mn rab3 obooi … ma kent ashoofk ela etha obooi wadani m3ah el dowanya … b3dain ana kobart w obooi ma gam ewadeni m3ah l2n 3aib and all that… w at that time ana ma kent ayy el Kuwait wayd kent ayy two weeks, I can barely spend them with my family. To be honest, I forgot about you. maku shay kan ethakerni feek… 7eta ma kan 3endi pics of you.

Hoody was the childhood friend who was so protective. He’s 4 years older than me, people never understood why he would let me hang with him and his friends. Hoody was the only one who I would listen to. He used to get angry with me when I do something he doesn’t like, he would later come and apologize for getting mad and start explaining what I did wrong. He would always advice and lectures me. His friends were always scared to approach me, they were scared to ask me to play with them. They would take Hoody’s permission first and then if he says yes, I would play with them. He wouldn’t let me play with anyone, I could only play with the kids he knew and trusted. He was like a brother to me.

Fahad: mestansa eni Hoody? Ra7 ytghayr shay now that you know eni Hoody?

Me: akeed mestansa!! Hoody you know how much you used to mean to me! w akeed tatetghayr waayd ashya2 … I know who you are !! I can trust you now.

Fahad: laish y3ni gabl ma kentay wath8a feni?

Me: to be honest, I don’t trust Fahad, I trust Hoody!

Fahad: shelfarg!